Being in an Acapella group has changed how I hear music. I used to only listen to to words...and now I pick up harmonies, bass lines...the like. Even AFI, I can even pick our your bass lines now. I couldn't tell you what notes they are...but I can at least sing it back to you.

Spent most of the day home cooking today. Baked cookies and made appetizers for tomorrow. There are times where I feel like I'm really stereotypical or I'm from the wrong Era. I like to bake and cook. Cleaning doesn't bother me that much. Nor does grocery shopping. I like domestic, nesting like things. Taking car of my dad, my man. I feel a little weird that my list of life aspirations is not very long. Besides being a teacher, and writing books...I just want to get married and have kids. Part of me is like..."Shouldn't I want more?" But I really have just come to the conclusion that I like family, and home and the like. I hate bars, I'm not really a fan of staying out late. A good night for me is with a book or a story home. I make up for the people like my boyfriend who are barely ever home. :)

On a story related note. I'm currently writing the 12th chapter. Yes people the 12th continuous chapter. I think I may have hit a new record. Normally this is when I start skipping around. But I want to try this and see if it works better. Which brings me to my next point. I feel like I talk about this story at least once a week and no one has a clue what it's about. I guess I'm just very protective of this one. Seriously. My brother is the only person who's read it. and like the first six pages or whatever I sent him in a letter. I guess it's also the fact that the beginning doesn't have much zombie stuff...and I don't know if I started it anywhere else if it would make sense. That, and if anyone cares...haha. eh. We'll see.

As for my Book-A-Week Challenge....I had four papers and two exams last week. so...there. So far it's pretty awesome...Although so far only Hedwig and Mad Eye have died...I guess the carnage comes later. lol (I'm half way through)

Things with Dan seem to be looking up. Here's hoping :)

Happy Thanksgiving :)

Yup... Same old same old...

January 30th, 2008 (10:39 am)


my brain feels like a fried egg already. and it's the second week of the semester. so is the life of the music major. heh

I really wish i had time to write. I have so many ideas. :(



I love how nothing has changed when it comes to that.




and please...God I don't know if you owe me any favors but if you do...please fix Dan. :(

I really wish that I didn't have to work today.

So lately, I've trying to make a better attempt to understanding/learning Lithuania. And although it probably sounds funny, I've been taking what my teenage and older cousins say on facebook and putting it into google translate, and being like...Oh I knew that word.

For example I learned:
Kas Geras (which I had heard both desperately) means: What's Good?
Darba= Work.

slow progress...baby steps.

In other news. I saw Miss. Carolyn friday night. And although it kinda turned into the "roast of blank blankety" (which I kinda knew it would) we talked about how Tamile is getting married and we were invited to her wedding! As well as what the next several years are to bring. It was nice. It's really nice to know that I have friends that I can go months without seeing and it's like nothing changes.

And of course, this wouldn't be an entry if I didn't talk about TZN. I have 9 typed chapters, as well as one handwritten one that needs to go on the computer. Jon has been very helpful when it comes to me telling him what I want to do and him either being like "Oh cool." or "EW that's really dumb, I would do this." Maybe the Book should be called "The Zombie Novellas" By Kelly Robideau w/ Jonathan Beyus. hahah or not.:)

I really need to just suck it up and put part of it up here. I guess I feel so excited and different about this one that I don't want someone to burst my happy bubble if they think it is boring/sucks. One thing that I will say is, I love the fact that I'm writing it from 4 different perspectives. So you get each different personality. Like I just finished writing two chapters as Kasia (the main character)and now I'm writing a chapter as Patrick who once seemed like a pervert but I actually love him now!!! Because he is the conflict and the drama that prolongs (spoiler alert) Kasia and Sam getting together. Its been really fun to write his frustration and all that. Chapter 11 should be fun...heehee :D

Pretty much, I've written lots of stories before...but never has one brought me as much joy as this one. Which is kind of funny because it's not exactly a happy one. But it's something I look forward to doing. Much more than work, more than school, more than ACAbellas even. I know shocker. I feel like there was a time were playing music (perhaps in high school) made me feel happy. But not like this. Maybe this was how it should have been all along. :)

Lets find out...

A challenge for Myself

So I'm an English Major. I read ALOT for school. I also take pride in the fact that I've been writing stories for about as long as I have been able to hold a pencil. But I can honestly tell you that in the past, I never really used to read for pleasure. I feel like I'm cheating myself as both a writer and just a human being by not doing that. So I went to B&N Two weeks ago and bought two books. This was of course after it took me 3 months to read "World War Z" by Max Brooks. (Ironically which is the "zombie" genre) but so far I've read 2 books in 2 weeks. So I'm planning on pushing myself to have a...

BOOK-A-WEEK-CHALLENGE!

I don't want to buy any new books until after Christmas, so with that being said, I'm going to read ones that I haven't had time for...or reread some that were good. and grade them. haha. In light of the fact that Harry Potter is coming out next week, I think that the seventh book may be the 11/12-11/19 book of the week. :)

"World War Z"- B+ I liked how it was set up like an interveiw, but it was dry in some places.

"A Great and Terrible Beauty" - A! Very disappointed that I'm making myself wait until Christmas to read the sequel.

"Evermore" B-/C+ - it saved itself at the end...but up until Damen tells Ever the truth, I was like...Twilight, twilight, Twilight...which lets face it...we don't need more than one of.

Haha, that was kinda fun.

Story upadate: Patrick is becoming likable? It's like this character is fighting for his place in this book. afoweurouwriuoiwde!

You know...things...

I now have 9 completed chapters. Although only 6 of them are on the computer. That may change at some point soon. But you know, with Bellas and homework and SLEEP. We will see how that goes. I'm about to hit the point that I usually get to- the one where I know how I want to get somewhere, but stuck as to how to do it. But I'm hoping with deadlines and outlines I will be able to push through and for once in my life have a completed first draft that I can tear apart!

Going along the lines of Zombie excellency...AMC recently started a new show "The Walking Dead" Which of course is on sunday nights, when I've already had work and rehersal. BUT, none the less. The characters are pretty wholesome with out the glitz and martial arts of Milla Jovovich. (Though I love her and her movies very much). It pretty much shows what the world would really be like, if such an even occured.

http://www.hulu.com/watch/190905/the-walking-dead-days-gone-bye

In other news...I registered for my last full semester of school's classes today! WOO! and I got Jon his birthday present today! and speaking of Jon...MIA. haha? I'm like 99.9 sure he's passed out since he worked the butt-crack-o-dawn shift.

My head hurts.

You know what is an excellent feeling? Filling up a notebook with a story and needing a new one. :)

You know what is not a good feeling? A migraine. Gross.

Watch out...or you'll end up in my novel...

So I'm trying to keep my story interesting and personable. That being said, I ended up writing a scene about my characters and their experiences with relationships...and Kasia's story might sound similar to a story I have that involves a certain post college aged boy that some of us might know. I might put it up here later...

anyway...I know that it was sometime ago, and that a lot of it was my own doing, for not acting,making a choice, things like that. But I was really surprised by how painful it sounded as my character told it from her point of view. The fact that this person played with my head, and wanted me around when there was no better option apparently cut me a little deeper than I thought. And apparently writing about it made it slightly better? I'm sure this all sounds like craziness to like everyone but like...Jes. lol

(She just woke up from a nightmare, that her crush/first time Tony shot her, remember they live in a apocalyptic world)
"That son of a bitch better be a corpse." I said.
"Tony again, eh?" Sam Asked.
"Who else?" I grumbled, hopping up to sit next to him on the trunk.

and that's all you get for now...maybe I will put some better bits up. :)

At least I tried...

So I guess I'm giving up on the blog challenge. Boo. I just seems like even if I were to do like 5 of them at once I would be behind. Its getting to be that point in the semester where everything is getting crazy. That and...I've started reading like a fiend. It's like becoming an addiction. And it's all the sci fi fantasy genre. I'm channeling my inner Carolyn. (Whom I miss)Like even with reading for school. I've read almost two books in a week.

I've also been writing. And I've got 8 chapters. around 60 something pages. Its about Zombies and 5 people are their trials and tribulations of trying to survive and get somewhere safe.

There's Kasia- Who is my heroine (It's almost always a heroine, sorry boys) She was born and raised to be prepared for any sort of disaster situation (Her Grandfather lived during world war II in Poland.) She tough, but has got a softer side.

Sam- Sam is pretty much Jonathan Beyus, that lucky duck. He wanted to be in a story. A laid back guy, very resourceful. His young nephew was infected and caused his whole family to leave, leaving him to catch up with them, which you know...probably won't happen. But the Character Collin reminds him of said nephew so he has a soft spot for him.

Emily- She's a bratty girl from NYC. I can't decide if I want her to be a raging bitch or too be the scared one. She's going to have some interesting character development though, I can tell you that.

Patrick- He's meant to be the bad boy of the group, the "bad seed from the wrong side of the tracks", but right now he's kinda a pervert. He may have to get edited.

Collin (who hasn't actually been written about yet.) Is going to be about 8 or 9. He got seperated from his family. Sam watches after him even though several of the other characters don't want to take the child on.

I like it. Here's hoping I don't lose steam in the middle like my other stories....One of them needs to get finished!