Day 3

Write about your first love....

As I said in the past, I've had three other relationships before this current one. The first two were in highschool. Obviously nothing like that counts. Rich however is a different matter.

He treated me perfectly amazing, We were together for almost two years. I'm not really sure how to describe it. I thought I loved him, I really did. But it got to the point that When I thought of being with him forever, I couldnt handle it. Ultimately, we were different people who needed different things and it was a long time coming.

I know that it's probably uber cheesy to say that Jon is my first love. But I really think he is. I can't even explain the differences sometimes. All I know is that it never hurt to leave Rich, even if it was going to be something dumb like 24 hours. I hate it. I feel like I never get my Jon fix. I feel like Jon is confident, and he drops his guard so I can see his "true colors" Even if he thinks he's ugly or hairy or whatever. I don't think that, We are confident because of each other. I know he's my 4th boyfriend but I feel like there have been alot of firsts. First guy I talked to seriously about the future, first vacation, etc etc etc.

Jon's also the only guy that liked me back as much as I liked them. and besides the mega crush I had on James...haha back in the day. Jon's The only guy I was crushing hard on. the other three liked me first.

I feel like this is the way it's going to be. and I'm excited for the future.