Okay, okay...I know it's time for an update

Yes, I must admit to you that a lot has happen since my birthday....and there were several times that I sat here with this screen open, not sure how to word the things that were swirling in my head....but Its time to get it all out.

So Disney in a nut shell: It was Disney world, it was warm and full of cute little kids and it was fun...but a word of advice. Make sure that you truly know someone before you travel with them. Carolyn and I were okay, but Carolyn and other travel companion....not so much. I can't believe I paid tons of money to have to deal with fights and crazy behavior. Oh well, it's all behind us now and I still am happy that I went. However, I also think that Disney world is more magical when you have a small child with you there. When I have kids, I can't wait to go back. So yup, that's that. Even in Disney, Two's company and Three is a crowd. :(

okay...so onto the next crazy situation in my life. As I'm sure most of you know by now, I've always had trouble with one class as a music major. Aural skills. It took me two tries to get out of the first level, and I had taken my third try in level two during the spring semester. I took voice lessons, i got up and practiced every day, i did my stupid Macgamut, and I even visualized myself suceeding like Chris tells me to all the time. Well I go to my final and my professor (a different one, than the previous two semesters) asks;

"can we talk off the record?"
"...sure?"
"Do you have a learning disability you didn't tell me about?"

Long story short...My dictations made no sense to him, it was the opposite of what he would play and he was out of ideas. I appreciate the fact that he brought this to my attention, but waiting till the final? Wasn't that a little too late? So I get my grades when they came out a week ago...and I got a D. sure, that's passing, but not enough to go onto the next level. If I had passed the class I would have been at 5.5 years including student teaching....so I was pushed back another semester. The rest of my classes were as and bs and I've passed and completed everything else thus far. This one class is holding me back from the school of education, as well as even just graduating with a degree in general studies of music. I was just...shocked I guess. Like, How much more do I put myself through this? How long do I stay in college? I was out of ideas, and the thought of taking the class for a fourth time made me want to jump off a building.....

....So I changed my major.

SHOCKING I KNOW. I was once a biotch and used to be like "oh people who do that are quitters! I'm never going to change." Well, I've finally been broken down to the point where I couldn't take it anymore. But I want to assure you that I'm okay with it. I switched to a BA in English, and although I will need a summer class this year and next year, and probably a winter session class, I will graduate in the spring! 4 years! Oh my god! I never thought I would ever be out of college in 4 years? I guess alot of my gen ed's worked for both majors and alot of my english electives also worked! I also have a music minor. hahah. That wouldn't be hard after spending 3 years somewhere. I keep on trying to think positively. Sure, I put alot of time into music, but that would have been one position in a school, sometimes even a whole district. Getting my certification and masters in elementary gives me so much more. k-5 has alot more jobs.

I guess it's just a matter of adjusting. There are days where I'm totaly fine and then there was a day that Jon was playing the piano at his house and I cried. I guess it's just an end of an era. And from what I've heard...a failure in life makes you a better person in the long run.

In other news. I love Jon. He's kinda be with me for all of this, and he supports me no matter what my decision is. I just feel lucky. I feel like this whole thing, it's a brush of fate, and this is the direction it's supposed to go in. Hopefully, he'll be my side for the duration.

okay, I guess that is enough for now.

ALL DONE!

Not perfect by anymeans..but happy! :)

Happy birthday to me!

So now my computer not only is slow, has a crappy screen, and doesn't work without being plugged in but it rejects my ipod, won't tell me that i'm connected to the internet and sends me error messages when I try to get onto said internet. Not going on vacation or anything? I'm broke! Can't afford a new computer!!!!

Every time I see Kmart commercials...I want to throw something. :)

One down...one more to go.

I promise that at some point in the near future...like tomorrow...I will give a real update. :) One sock done...looks better on than just chilling there. My friend Jen actually laughed out loud when I showed her. It's my first sock dammit throw me a bone here! :D

Ugly Sock :(

I'm thinking of just calling it the prototype. As I said the needles are too large...and picked way too many stiches...etc etc. It's awkward, but a good learning expeirence, and I'm banking on the other one being better. :)

okay back to work.

I'm not dead yet!

Hello,

long time no post! To be perfectly honest, things have been CRAZY busy. I had concerts and work and etc etc. Long story short, her I am. There is 15 days until I'm done with school 17 days till my 21st birthday and 18 days until I go to Disney World! I can't believe how quickly this trip is coming up. I kinda feel like I should pack now, between school, work, a concert, the sophomore review and my juries. FINALS BAM! I will be like...oh crap. I leave tomorrow. :)

In other news. Things are good. Jon is wonderful today is 9 months since our first date and May 9 will be 8 months of being official. Time flies, and I'm looking forward to the summer.

Really gotten into knitting. Like if you know me, you know that I've always been like yay scarfs or random loom knitted things but this is like a whole new level. Made friends with a girlfriend of one of the DIVISI boys girlfriends and she has opened my world to all kinds of amazing things...I'm currently making a sock. Yah. It's not perfect, the needles I'm using are too big, but I'm excited and if it goes well...I will get some more tools of the trade. I also want to make a sweater. Maybe I'll finish all my other projects first. ha.