This is the inpiriration for my Rynor (AKA love interest in story) <3 <3 <3
June 23, 2010
This blog is for my own personal benefit these days.
This is the inpiriration for my Rynor (AKA love interest in story) <3 <3 <3
June 13, 2010
Okay, okay...I know it's time for an update
Yes, I must admit to you that a lot has happen since my birthday....and there were several times that I sat here with this screen open, not sure how to word the things that were swirling in my head....but Its time to get it all out.
So Disney in a nut shell: It was Disney world, it was warm and full of cute little kids and it was fun...but a word of advice. Make sure that you truly know someone before you travel with them. Carolyn and I were okay, but Carolyn and other travel companion....not so much. I can't believe I paid tons of money to have to deal with fights and crazy behavior. Oh well, it's all behind us now and I still am happy that I went. However, I also think that Disney world is more magical when you have a small child with you there. When I have kids, I can't wait to go back. So yup, that's that. Even in Disney, Two's company and Three is a crowd. :(
okay...so onto the next crazy situation in my life. As I'm sure most of you know by now, I've always had trouble with one class as a music major. Aural skills. It took me two tries to get out of the first level, and I had taken my third try in level two during the spring semester. I took voice lessons, i got up and practiced every day, i did my stupid Macgamut, and I even visualized myself suceeding like Chris tells me to all the time. Well I go to my final and my professor (a different one, than the previous two semesters) asks;
"can we talk off the record?"
"...sure?"
"Do you have a learning disability you didn't tell me about?"
Long story short...My dictations made no sense to him, it was the opposite of what he would play and he was out of ideas. I appreciate the fact that he brought this to my attention, but waiting till the final? Wasn't that a little too late? So I get my grades when they came out a week ago...and I got a D. sure, that's passing, but not enough to go onto the next level. If I had passed the class I would have been at 5.5 years including student teaching....so I was pushed back another semester. The rest of my classes were as and bs and I've passed and completed everything else thus far. This one class is holding me back from the school of education, as well as even just graduating with a degree in general studies of music. I was just...shocked I guess. Like, How much more do I put myself through this? How long do I stay in college? I was out of ideas, and the thought of taking the class for a fourth time made me want to jump off a building.....
....So I changed my major.
SHOCKING I KNOW. I was once a biotch and used to be like "oh people who do that are quitters! I'm never going to change." Well, I've finally been broken down to the point where I couldn't take it anymore. But I want to assure you that I'm okay with it. I switched to a BA in English, and although I will need a summer class this year and next year, and probably a winter session class, I will graduate in the spring! 4 years! Oh my god! I never thought I would ever be out of college in 4 years? I guess alot of my gen ed's worked for both majors and alot of my english electives also worked! I also have a music minor. hahah. That wouldn't be hard after spending 3 years somewhere. I keep on trying to think positively. Sure, I put alot of time into music, but that would have been one position in a school, sometimes even a whole district. Getting my certification and masters in elementary gives me so much more. k-5 has alot more jobs.
I guess it's just a matter of adjusting. There are days where I'm totaly fine and then there was a day that Jon was playing the piano at his house and I cried. I guess it's just an end of an era. And from what I've heard...a failure in life makes you a better person in the long run.
In other news. I love Jon. He's kinda be with me for all of this, and he supports me no matter what my decision is. I just feel lucky. I feel like this whole thing, it's a brush of fate, and this is the direction it's supposed to go in. Hopefully, he'll be my side for the duration.
okay, I guess that is enough for now.
So Disney in a nut shell: It was Disney world, it was warm and full of cute little kids and it was fun...but a word of advice. Make sure that you truly know someone before you travel with them. Carolyn and I were okay, but Carolyn and other travel companion....not so much. I can't believe I paid tons of money to have to deal with fights and crazy behavior. Oh well, it's all behind us now and I still am happy that I went. However, I also think that Disney world is more magical when you have a small child with you there. When I have kids, I can't wait to go back. So yup, that's that. Even in Disney, Two's company and Three is a crowd. :(
okay...so onto the next crazy situation in my life. As I'm sure most of you know by now, I've always had trouble with one class as a music major. Aural skills. It took me two tries to get out of the first level, and I had taken my third try in level two during the spring semester. I took voice lessons, i got up and practiced every day, i did my stupid Macgamut, and I even visualized myself suceeding like Chris tells me to all the time. Well I go to my final and my professor (a different one, than the previous two semesters) asks;
"can we talk off the record?"
"...sure?"
"Do you have a learning disability you didn't tell me about?"
Long story short...My dictations made no sense to him, it was the opposite of what he would play and he was out of ideas. I appreciate the fact that he brought this to my attention, but waiting till the final? Wasn't that a little too late? So I get my grades when they came out a week ago...and I got a D. sure, that's passing, but not enough to go onto the next level. If I had passed the class I would have been at 5.5 years including student teaching....so I was pushed back another semester. The rest of my classes were as and bs and I've passed and completed everything else thus far. This one class is holding me back from the school of education, as well as even just graduating with a degree in general studies of music. I was just...shocked I guess. Like, How much more do I put myself through this? How long do I stay in college? I was out of ideas, and the thought of taking the class for a fourth time made me want to jump off a building.....
....So I changed my major.
SHOCKING I KNOW. I was once a biotch and used to be like "oh people who do that are quitters! I'm never going to change." Well, I've finally been broken down to the point where I couldn't take it anymore. But I want to assure you that I'm okay with it. I switched to a BA in English, and although I will need a summer class this year and next year, and probably a winter session class, I will graduate in the spring! 4 years! Oh my god! I never thought I would ever be out of college in 4 years? I guess alot of my gen ed's worked for both majors and alot of my english electives also worked! I also have a music minor. hahah. That wouldn't be hard after spending 3 years somewhere. I keep on trying to think positively. Sure, I put alot of time into music, but that would have been one position in a school, sometimes even a whole district. Getting my certification and masters in elementary gives me so much more. k-5 has alot more jobs.
I guess it's just a matter of adjusting. There are days where I'm totaly fine and then there was a day that Jon was playing the piano at his house and I cried. I guess it's just an end of an era. And from what I've heard...a failure in life makes you a better person in the long run.
In other news. I love Jon. He's kinda be with me for all of this, and he supports me no matter what my decision is. I just feel lucky. I feel like this whole thing, it's a brush of fate, and this is the direction it's supposed to go in. Hopefully, he'll be my side for the duration.
okay, I guess that is enough for now.
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